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I'm feeling upset.
If you ask me why I'll not like it so please don't.
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I feel better now after talking to kaykay.
I'm not an emo girl, but everyone gets sad every once in a while. No one is always happy and at the top of the game. Sorry if this post dampened ur mood (If you do care bout me that much. Otherwise, I'm still sorry) I'll come back w a cny post and this tw I'll write the post w/ a smile on my face. G'nite x
P.s If believing that soulmates exist makes one feel better, why not? I hope I can grow and become an even better person inside and out for the man I've yet to meet. Tonight's prayer will be fr that man I'll one day love with all my heart. And who will love me the same.

4 in the morning

Idk what I'm doing not sleeping at this hour :l Can't sleep w/ all the coughing and this fly that buzzes next to my ear when I attempt to sleep. So here I am. Watching random vds on youtube. But hey I found this one pretty cool, look how its like almost perpendicular to the ground when they're gg up. If you can ride this, you can ride any roller coaster in the world. The mummy one in USS was fun. The most extreme one I've been to was the scooby dooby doo (However its spelt) one in Gold Coast. It's so weird how in the vd the ppl don't scream, like honestly screaming makes it feel better. The 1st few times I went on a roller coaster, I didn't scream I just held on to the cushiony thing in front of me and chanted "God protect me God protect me" & closed my eyes the whole way while the girl beside me screamed at the top of her lungs. So in the end I barfed, it was nasty.. So yeah.

& DO watch Valerie's vds on youtube. She made like 4 covers alr I think? Just search "Valeriedabomb" And the vds should pop up. Watch her cover on "We found Love" if you wanna hear her speak :o) She spent her childhood in America so she can speak in that accent pretty comfortably (WAAAAY better than Amos Yee, trust me.) See that's one thing bout doing vlogs and recording a vd which you're gna post on youtube you just have that urge to speak in a clear american accent idk why. I can't do it well tho lol. & anyway val speaks singlish when she isn't facing the camera. By Singlish I mean how sg newscasters speak. Like thr aren't any LA LEH MEH MAH but it isn't exactly an american accent. Just polished singlish I guess haha. YOU (Yes you reading this right now) should speak polished singlish. It's not bout being cool, just that it gives off a better impression. + You do kinda sound better educated when you're able to converse comfortably w/ ppl from all walks of life (Aka adults..)

Last note: Good conversational skills doesn't begin w/ having good vocab. Grammar always comes first. Which is why once you get your grammar right, you may even beat the caucasians in an el essay cos down thr (Or up.. America's in the north from whr we are right?) They may have good grammar but not vocab. Yeeeah they do have slangs but in terms of words you can find only in an oxford dict, don't be surprised if your vocab is wider than some of em'.

Wokay. This post is so outta the blue. Hope I stay awake during service tmr.. & Reunion dinner in JB.

Hugz,

Melia.

3.V.0.7 x

Thank God mom's one is at a columbarium, I'd honestly freak out if I ever step into these kinda cemeteries. The Chinese one is scary nuff at night.. I always wonder what if one day the earth runs outta space for cemeteries or even columbariums? Where wd they put the tomb.. Maybe then ppl would HAVE to get cremated then have their ashes thrown into the sea or sth. Who knows, just a random thought :l ANYWAY.

I'm going back to ballet! Gonna finish my intermediate so that at least If I wanna take up teaching I can :o) Heard that the syllabus has changed.. Bummer. I hope it isn't too hard cos my standard now totally sucks :( + thr's a trip for the major girls (Grade 7 and above) to go to Melbourne for a dance trip. It isn't sponsored tho, we gotta pay for our own air tickets and accommodation and food. Well, its all inside the @ least 3000 bucks we gotta fork out. But omww.. its such a good experience gg overseas to dance w/ an aussie dance school. I'll see how I do in my mid years in JC first. I'm sure if I get stellar results my dad'll be a lil more willing :p

Vermelle, Valerie and Alicia! I was sitting w/ Meifei. Gosh how much I've missed em'~ It was so funny over lunch tho. Our convers started w/ Alicia talking bout a blowjob (I have no idea how that came bout lol) So it went like this: --All this happened while we munched on cheese fries and KFC cheesy bbq meltz meal.

Val: What's a blowjob?

Ranice and I: Umm...

Alicia: Explains*

Val: WHAT? What for?! So dirty!

Ranice drops fork and I dropped my chicken and we all started bawling.

Like Val's 17 and even if she didnt know what a blowjob was, aft being 'taught' it was so funny cos she didn't know why it was done. Duh.. pleasure??

So after that we stayed on this topic for like 15mins hahaha. I told them an experience I had which I'm not gna say here it is super censored. The whole time Ranice was telling us to stop talking bout this but we didn't so she began STABBING her cheese fries until it looked as disgusting as the topic we were on hahaha.

Super funny conver we had tgt. Super!

Okay so other than that on sat my week's been pretty boring.. I do all sorts of lame stuff like decorating the pic above. "Huhuhu.. I'm the last samurai/ ghetto ninja sensei"

And I got a tattoo! Lol I found my yog 2010 tattoo so just.. JUST. But look how happy I am haha, this was an accidental shot btw, I still look so happy :o) So yeah.. its 2:24am now and for 2 weeks my bedtime's been like 4-5am. Very unhealthy.. Sigh. Wokay I'm out!

Gonna youtube or whatever, I played mix and match w/ my clothes again teehee :p @ least now I have like 3 outfits I can wear out during cny or upcoming activities! Might post them soon so stay tuned!

Cheerios ~ x x

A Fine Frenzy - Almost Lover

Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick
Well I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye my almost lover
Goodbye my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images
And when you left you kissed my lips
You told me you would never ever forget
These images
Well I'd never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye my almost lover
Goodbye my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that
Easy to walk right in and out
Of my life?

Definition of my love story. Fell in love with my best friend, he acted the same. Did everything for him. Stuck my neck out and got up in the middle of the night for him. Gave him my whole heart and soul. Then a girl he's always had a lil crush on says she would go out with him, he just droped me and forgot I actually have feelings. I didn't matter anymore. I was never anything to him. Said he really never feel that way, it was just convient at the time. I didn't know it could hurt that much...x

Hi.

Hi. Did that make you jump in ur seat? I hope it did.. Haha HELLOOO. It's been so long since I've blogged. The last time I blogged was 2011 :( Well I'm here now so smilee :o) Honestly, I didn't make full use of this break. I could've just found a job despite the 2 weeks overseas. My dad gave me a job but it doesn't count.. & the job is so tedious! Didn't know my parents took so many photos of me when I was a baby allll the way into childhood. Moving on~

So for starters, I got myself a new specs (Okay my dad got me it) Still trying to used to it tho.. It's a black full frame, makes it feel like I'm looking at the world from inside a telly x_o

My cuzzies came over for the xmas gathering last sat, I really like the girls. The boy? I don't adore him.. (Not being biased here alright, you'll know why in a sec) He's a lil obnoxious at times like he can just say the word "Cock" infront of the adults and he's 12 alr. Plus he shows- Okay I've decided not to say too much here who knows he stalks me :p We had BBQ and a kinda pot luck thing. #Sadgirl95 that day we didn't have turkey, ham or a log cake. Gosh typing this makes me hungry :l

B i g g i e disappointment here.. My sky dancer earrings are sold out. Btw Erickson Beamon replied to my tweet bout wanting to save up for a EB head piece hahah I was sooo thrilled! I know I know they're darn expensive. Why else would they be made out of swarovski crystals? I guess I'll have to put EB on hold till I make $ myself.. But the one in the pic above (Forgot what brand) is pretty affordable. Sometimes I feel like telling my mom to not buy me accessories from SK J. or Swarovski.. I'm not a fan of tiny sparkly things. Unless you go on a date and the guy really notices, what's the pt? And wearing such a tiny and expensive thing on casual occasions is too risky. Not like those skydancer earrings.. sigh so pretty. U N I C OR N S are beautiful mystical creatures. Wonder if they have em' in heaven hm. x x

Went down with a flu recently and had tea to soothe it. Hilda asked me if tea really does soothe flu. In terms of healing the illness I'm not too sure but it def does make you feel better. Esp if your nose is dry? Breathe in the 'steam' from the tea it feels really good. And tea is tasty! Instead of drinking cold drinks, coffee or if you're like me you think water is boring. Tea's yeabsolutely perfect :o) There are diff kinds of tea I like Earl Grey, Chinese and Camomille (However you spell it) but English Breakfast's too strong for me. So yeah, lol I've become so random nowadays x_o

This is an accidental shot when I was vd-ing myself singing "Little House". It's a simple, beautiful song sung by Amanda Seyfried. Also a soundtrack from Dear John. I really am amazed at how Amanda could go from acting a dumb blonde in Mean Girls to musical films like MamamamaMia and romance in Dear John. I hope she and Dominic Cooper get married haha.

I tweeted this photo a few days back.

I come from the land of the ravenous bunny eating ninjas! x

Boredom. My body clock is totally wrong now I've been sleeping at 4 or 5am and waking up at 12 or close to 1 everyday.. I'm the most alert at night hoot hoot* Okay so basically melia's life is.. not super exciting at the moment. It will be starting 9 Jan tho, results results! Can't wait I hope the teachers don't drag it too long kinda wish we could just go to school collect it and go. Oh and I gotta pay the 5 bucks for the library book I lost. Bummer to the maximum :( I haven't paid my national library fines too.. I'm so irresponsible :p

Okay it's late I'll try to sleep earlier tnt, g'nite x !