You're Getting Bored, Mr.

This probably doesn't need further elaboration lol. Except..

- Why does it itch so bad.

Have no idea what kinda camera this is but sure looks good. Idk why pictures of stuff with a semi dried up flower beside it look so much better than if it were w/o the floral or petals. Do hope I get a polaroid by grad night *Keeping fingers crossed.

Things I do when I run out of stuff to do on the comp. Oh btw today's paper was killer, also due to an itchy butt for the whole 2 hours. Had to constantly shift my weight from butt cheeks to butt cheeks. And xf still had the cheek to say it was easy.. Sigh I guess it was peanuts for the scholars. Look at the no. of times I used cheek in a para, awesomee.

"Who doesn't long for someone to hold, who knows how to love you without being told. Somebody tell me why I'm on my own, if there's a soulmate for everyone."

Watched "Strangers, again." Kinda predict that my 1st relationship's gonna be like that, but we'll see. Prolly would try it out on him (whoever he's gonna be.) :"You do know that there are only 2 choices for us, its either we eventually get married or we break up. Do you think we'll get married?" Hope God gives me someone witty, funny and doesn't cling on me like a monkey. The day when I can relate to happy love songs while singing em' in the shower. Hahaha.

Lord, If it isn't too much to ask for.

Please give me a fairytale.

Miles away.

Y'know how it is missing relatives? Or just cuzzies in this case. When I'm here, this little red dot on the atlas and they're all the way there. I do have cousins in Malaysia and Indonesia, but those waaay out there in those "Which part" Countries. Like, "Where do you live?"-Aussie. "Oh cool which part?"- Goldcoast :)

But now its like. "Hey where'ya from?"-Singapore. "Oh which part?"-... Singapore? "Yea I know but where exactly?"-Bukit Batok. o.o I guess its fiiine.. At least it doesn't go like this:

"Where'ya from?"-Singapore. "Is that in the South of China?" Booyou ._.

Yap, we're all playing monopoly here in sg. Except we get skyscrapers and hdb buildings instead of low rise houses. If only we could look across the horizon eh?

Joyce looks pretty happy in London. She's so smart, sometimes I think my Dad wishes for me to be just like her. Even though he doesn't compare. Which parent doesn't want their child to do well in school :l Oh btw, exams today were hm.. manageable. Don't wanna sound too confident, then I'll get bigger disappointment. Usually.

Peter and Philip. Last time we had fun was when we were over turning starfishes in Bali and going on Banana Boats with Willy and the adults. Fun fun fun fun. Hope everything's good in the states.

Carolina, the last time we met was when we were toddlers in Indonesia. Idk where she is right now, prolly studying abroad. But I met Steph last year during the wedding :) Can't wait to meet up.

Emma and Leo! Its been like 7 years or so. I rmb Leo being obsessed with electronic stuff hahaha. Looking under fridges, switching stuff on and off, going crazy with my dad. Lucky I got emma on facebook, @ least we're kinda still in touch.

There's still Juliana and Ryan in Canada, Vancouver. I rmb being mean to you cos I stuck bubble gum in your books and sharpened the new pencil you didn't wanna sharpen. But I enjoyed Disneyworld in Florida sooo much! And the gigantic golden retriever your neighbour had. And how tasty ice-cones were :P But I can't find you guys on facebook, bummer.

Sigh. Can't everyone just commit and plan a huge reunion holiday or sth? Not in Singapore please haha, sho boring here. Looking forward to hopping from state to state after Os! Gonna study briefly for el paper now, goodluck to you pal :)

Life after Swiss.

Few friends of mine considered dsa into Sota year 5. Didn't have to say a lot cos I myself wasn't sure bout the details. I still rmbed being really ambitious bout transfering to sota in sec 2, didn't happen. I do want to go to Sota, dancing everyday and learning bout dance history and anatomy is so interesting. But then I ask myself what happens after that.

For 4 years I managed to keep the ambition of becoming a vet. And the pathway there is pretty clear now. Either Junior college here in sg or there in australia where I can study in Trinity College and be able to go to uni of Melbourne. Google saves lives haha. Took many screenshots but imma lazy to put em here. Basically if I go overseas next year, it'll be 1 year foundation studies @ Trinity College>3 years undergraduate in Animal Health and Diseases @ Uni of Melbourne>4 years Doctor of Veterinary Science @ Uni of Melbourne. That's 8 years. Pretty long but that's what it takes to be a vet. Here's the requirements for entry, I'm definite I'll be able to get at least 4 subjects at B level o.o

What I'll be studying If I do go. The problem now is that its a long way from home and I will miss it. And I'm not that independent yet, to leave home for 8 years straight and only being able to come back during the holidays. Sigh, why can't sg offer a vet course and make everything much easier. Hopefully in 2 years, a course like that will be offered at NUS.

Not tough to hit these.

And the accomodation? Trinity College offers accomodation for girls under 18. That's for foundation year :) And the hostel looks good too.

P.s There are more screenshots of syllabus taught for the undergraduate and graduate courses but imma not put up. This post seems lengthy enough.

If I do take A levels here. It'll just be Jc instead of Trinity College. But it still means that I'll have to choose science stream to be more eligible for the undergraduate course. If I go to Sota, they take the IBDS, don't think there are modules to choose from its pretty standard. So it may not be helpful for my application to Uni after that. Well.. unless I want to pursue a career in dancing. But its too late to train to become a ballerina for a company. And you gotta be REALLY good. Anyhoo, I saw the requirements for the dsa for dance.

I stopped at Inter Found so (check)

Excellent standard of English written. (I guess I'm okay)

Interest in Dance (Check)

It's almost like an rad exam. The dvd recording is pretty good cos you'll be able to record yourself till you get the best one. Attending class with the Sota kids? I hope they aren't snobbish and like look down on you if you screw up. So yeah, a lot of thinking to do after Os on what step to take next. For now, as daddy said, just focus on doing well for Os. Cos if I make so many plans, w/o good grades I will not be able to make those dreams come true. Things to do by today: 1) Study SS 2) Study Emath 3) Study Chem Spa calculations.

My chains are gone, I've been set free.

My God my Savior, has ransomed me.

And like a flood, His mercy reigns.

Unending love, amazing grace.

Say wha-?

Ever had this feeling? When you wanna give some advice to people and you're afraid they get insulted and say its none of your business. But its actually cos you care too much. And I'm just that sorta person who corrects people a lot, sometimes even more than I do to myself. (Which is bad.) Just finished Choosing Our Parents and I guess it is true some stuff your parents like to do becomes a habit of yours over time. Like when the radio in the car is playing and some Cyndi Lauper song is playing, I just know the lyrics like *snap Then dad would sing along. Prolly cos my whole 16 years I listened to oldies. Like the huge cd display thing in my living room? It's almost all from the 1980s onwards. Some even older. Idk how I know this song but I just know it hahah. Just like how I'm listening to 95fm now and so far every song? I know them. And until now I still don't know what point I'm trying to make lol o.o

Yap. Sometimes I wished I was Ben 10 so I can shapeshift into a monster and torture the person I disliked.- if I ever do dislike someone that much. Thankfully, I don't :) But nah haha, I'm not the cruel. Last time I used to think of all the ways I could torture my enemy, most of which were inspired from the gruesome ways in Saw or Final Destination. But as for now, I'll prolly just slap that beach/bastard. AGAIN, thats if I do hate anyone that much. I do not. For now.

Now ain't this pretty? Can consider for grad night teehee. Many people have told me that grad night's useless and they'd rather go out with their friends cos its just an event which everyone wants to look gorgeous or suave for. But I've attended the previous one as a member in the planning comm and yes it is kinda boring. There's no dancing or punch or ice sculpture beside the food. But still, its the last and prolly first time we'd all come tgt for a dinner and celebrate the end of Os and our 4 years in swiss. Hhaha, sounds so fellowship-ish. Sooo I hope many people go. And I hope the theme is really Poseidon-paradise. Cos then blue would be involved, and I'll come dressed as a smurf! :D Really thinking bout making a fashion statement haha, like trash the usual dresses and clutches (No idea how a small bag like that is useful.) Come in a blue smurf costume heh. We'll see we'll see..

K sooooo yap. Bye guys!

"This wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real.

There's just too much that time cannot erase."

-My Immortal. Evanescence.

Cut the Chase.

Hello,

Goodnight.

Wetnesday.

Today they on-ed the aircon despite the rain, today class was small, today teachers were nice, today I got the mr bean ice-scream. Today, I survived today. & that's good :)

Although. For a short period in class I felt like Lilo. When it was humid and I was coughing and the lesson was like a funeral speech. But! I survived today & that's good :)

If only I collected all my ballet stuff since I started out. I have no idea whr I chucked my baby ballet stuff to. Its aight, I'll just start collecting em' now. Rmb when I said as you go up to higher grades the leotards get more revealing? Yap, pink and innocent to black and ________. Fill in the blanks haha, von would kill me if I insulted her favourite colour. But black is sleek too. And classy. What ever happened to the 'let's go sonata and get custom-made leotards!' plan? So far I only got 2 black, 1 red and 1 blue. And they're all standard ones. Hm, after Os I guess.

I miss dancing. & the going to town part that comes with it. I haven't been really doing exercises at home and that's bad, what if I go back to ballet knowing nuts about it and Ms Kok makes me do Inter for 2 years before the exam? o.o Really hope parents would allow me to go for attitude classes :/ It's only once a week! Now that syf's over, I have nothing else to commit to other than studies. Oh bummer..

I miss these ice cones! The last time I ever had one was in Vancouver with Juliana and that was when I was.. 6? It wasn't even rainbow coloured. Mine was blue, ryan's was red. Wonder if they sell em here in sg. If they don't I can always set up a franchise here right? Hahaha :) Ate ice cream on the way home and ate it reallly fast cos I don't eat the melted part. Wouldn't it be nice to eat ice cream during winter. Can savour each bite cos it never melts. Ah japan, was 2 years ago. Time flies by too fast, wanna zoom past swiss life and thentake it slowly from there.

Can't believe I say this to myself sometimes. When I start thinking bout what to wear and double checking in the mirror. When I stare at myself too long then.. "Ugh melia stop it you look fine." its like my reflection talking back to me lol. @ least now that i don't got to go town for ballet, I don't have to be so conscious. My weekends are basically Church, fam, studies. So yeap, you're on the right track back melia :) Gonna wait till Os over to try on the new clothes I never wore. Many still have their labels on ._. I guess different girls have different um stuff they like to buy. Like cyn has 36 pairs of shoes, Val has every colour of headband and accessories you can name, Von has every P.e shirt colour. F21's gonna miss me for a long time now.

This is one of the many rojak posts I wrote. But Wetnesday much, rainnnn and rain. I like it when it rains when I'm sleeping in. Cos the sky would always be dark and it doesnt look like It's too late to wake up. :D

Bye guys.

Picture-Perfect Framed

Been reading up a lot on anorexia and bulimia. Thin is like the 1st step to looking attractive for some girls. (k most.) Fitting into a size 6 immediately makes you hot? For some girls they just over-comment on their own weight. Esp when they are already stick thin. "OMG I'm so fat! I gained 8 kg" Usually people would take a good look and say:" Oh no you're really skinny." And thats exactly what they wanna hear. Assurance. K digressing a lil here, when a girl says stuff like:" I look so fat in this. I'm so ugly in this dress." Their favourite reply? (And what most ppl would reluctantly say is) : Oh no you look great in that. Don't be silly. No one actually asked me that before but if they did, "Yeea totally. You should try the looser one, hides the flabby parts. Oh geez, look at those layers-" Nah haha, I'm not that bad. But seriously, sometimes just.. Women.

K backkk to the main topic. Anorexic people actually look in the mirror and see themselves as huge and fat. When they're actually all bones and kinda slowly dying o.o And its a psychological thing, their brain just idk haywire or sth. It occurs more in females compared to males and affects a lot of teenagers like you and I. Sometimes It isn't so surprising that anorexia is on the rise, just look at the media.

Models on the runway. Maaaany are anorexic. Y'know how models who work for companies like armani get fired once they put on a few pounds? It's crazy. Sometimes I hate to say it but looks DO matter in this society. Air stewardess (What my dad called high class waitresses), models, salesperson for branded shops.etc Wonder how ribcages and women who look like they'll fly off with the wind are sexy. Idk whr I heard this but: Sexy is an attitude too. And ever wondered why women with little clothing have more sex appeal than women with nothing at all? Or is that only me. Hahaha, hope not :/

Next, bulimia. This is really hm what wordddd. Sad? Eating good food then puking everything out? Didn't know there were so many complications that could arise from this. Decayed teeth due to exposure to stomach acids? Exploding of stomach cos everytime you force puke yourself your stomach expands? Just the thought of it. Urks me o.o Not sure if bulimia is psychological but women who suffer from this were definitely very conscious bout their weight. Then, after going round and round its still the same qst. Why? (This so feels like a cl essay) Modern times have more reasons to why people care so much bout their weight or looks. But anorexia has been ard since the 19th century. And last time they were looked at as holy cos they claim that they do not eat but get their energy or life from God. God told us not to be gluttons, not anorexic suicidal people.

Yeah men too, lesser but still have. And I thought men went for muscular and suave. But again, some fashion companies are looking out for sleek slender guys. Maybe its cos kurt made skinny guys look so attractive :) Skinny Gay Guys, in fact. Random post for a monday. But tmr's tuesday and its public holiday on Friday, so to make myself feel better tmr is like Wed alr! Yay-ness. (Sounds like anus.) Anyway, talked to a friend and he said 'piolet' instead of 'pilot'. Wasn't funny at 1st-prolly not even now. But looked back on it and thought, who actually pronounces it as "PIE-OH-LERT" k lame. Bye :)

P.s Choir got silver gonna say more in next post & All e best for Chinese dancers!

Dance with your heart. Feelings, not steps.

Maybe we're tryin' too hard.

I ate @ udders today. Ballsy Mint ftw! Been long since I last ate ice-cream so that made me feel nice today. Went to Westmall with Cuiting to get Choir syf stuff. Syf. This friday! Can't wait. I love you girls, no matter what we get imma still be proud. Oh yeah you know how the tables at udders have really cute short comic stuff? There was one that said:"This is why you don't give cows large straws." And it shows a cow drinking from her own .. breasts? Idk what they're called lol. I keep thinking bout Family Guy eps when I'm bored in class. PICK UP MY POOP!

It used to be so obvious whr I stood last time. Now I'm not really sure.. Oh well :l

Wait till my hair grows longer teehee. Sorry no deep thought process-y post tdy. Not really thinking much bout other stuff now that my whole head is just bout choir. Except that hm.. Prayer works :) Even the smallest thing you pray for can be answered. I like sharing testimonies even if it isn't those Lourdes Miracle sort, I just thank Him even for giving me a good day. Hm what else what else..

Oh yeah I watched a vd of seahorses (male) giving birth, it's really cool! It's like squirt* 100 babies. Bout 10 plus squirts hahaha. That species can give birth to bout 1800 babies. And they are so darn small o.o And I ain't gonna do those friend ranking status thingy again. Thr are some ppl I can't write for cos I only know their names. I'll just write long letters to close friends on gradnight :)

REALLY WANT TO GO YOUTH CAMP IN JUNE. It's at rompin, the place whr my 1st ever youth camp was held. No shopping at all so no distractions. And its waaaay further away from the adults whoops :p Adult camp 1 is at malacca and 2 is at penang. Hm Penang's food is a must try though. But youth camp rocks more. Hope dad allows me to go despite the studying for Os thing. It's just 5 days.. come onnn.

Abrupt ending much heh,

goodbye!

Drama-mama

Warning: Many pictures of melia ahead.



These are screenshots i took from a vd I took long ago of myself singing The Strongest Suit by Aida. I'm so drama lol. Gonna post some pics of me singing Part of your world. Hahaha, yap this is what I do when I'm bored and alone @ home. So um, what's your favourite past-time?

Old day.

Today is "one of those days." School was alright, happy with 2.4 be it a 12/13/14 mins. Choir was slowly working up from square 1 so I guess it was okay too. Funny how today everything went the other way round. Usually I'm glad to be home but now I just wanna sleep the rest of the day away. And nah its not bout family, just puzzled bout some stuff. Not everyday is good but good things happen every day. I have decided that today the good thing that happened was napha 2.4 run

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You miss the old times, melia?

Friends and Fat Issues

Pictures like this makes me wanna be a pro photographer when I'm old. Talking bout old.. I'm 15 going on 16 this year. It's so scary when I could just remember my 1st day at kindergarten. Or the days in primary school. I miss those times, but we all gotta move on. I always wanted to quickly grow up or be old enough to ____. Now I miss the times when I wasn't old enough to do things by myself. When my dad would tell me not to take things down the upper shelf myself cos I was too short and might break things. Now I'm pretty tall. But that's a whole different thing altogether. Watch out for my next post, its gonna be on puberty and how the letter A really suits me. Kidding :p So yeah I really miss em. Y'know how you just can't get over stuff that happened like 3 years ago? I'm beginning to let go of something and it makes me glad. But I can't get over what I did to my friends when I was way younger. Making em' cry by saying hurtful words to them, pulling their hair, spraying hairspray into her eyes. Even though I don't do that anymore, it doesn't really make a diff cos I didn't say sorry. So the thing is I'll like to hear an apology from someone but I know I'll never get it. @ the same time, I'd like to apologise to an old friend but I can't find the right time to cos we aren't really friends anymore. So does it cancel out? I hurt someone + someone hurt me= Nothing happened. It isn't right :/ God, just continue to strengthen me and teach me how to forgive and love others the same way you've forgiven and loved us.

Stop hating your bodies. To all the fat people out there, If you're fat cos you eat too much its your fault stop saying you were born that way. Quit eating macs all day and go to the gym instead of crying at your reflection. If you're fat cos you were born that way and you've tried everything. Except liposuction. and you don't have the money. Just continue to eat healthy and live life. Don't dwell in self pity and hate on all the people who appear on mag covers. Don't just wear a sweatshirt all day. For girls, wear flare blouses so they'll hide your flabby arms and stomach or sth. Show those stereotypes that you're fat and proud of it. If they look at you snobbishly, "I'd live longer than you in a blizzard and I'll be able to sleep soundly during times of war cos I can be my own pillow. Beat that. Twig.".

And to all of those average people who think you're huge, ask people for their opinion. Cos if it isn't true, that you're gaining weight.. you may have symptons of an aneorexic. But if you are gaining weight, head off to the gym! Lastly to all the girls who are thin/slim and aren't really getting heavier. Stop announcing to the whole world that you're getting fatter- in your mind. Cos what girls usually wanna hear as replies are:"No you aren't, you're so thin.." It boosts self confidence. But how would truly fat people feel when they see you saying:"OMG I must start gg on a diet, I'm getting so fat." when you SHOULD be putting on a few pounds in the 1st place. So yea. This goes out to all the fat/ugly people in the world who have great personalities. Stop hating like your haters they love it like that. Love yourself and know you're go far greater in life than your stick thin enemies.

Doesn't this look a wee bit like Lewies? K random haha. Idk why such a random post came up in my head but here it is. I alr got another post in mind. Gonna blog bout April Fools' Day cos it was sooooo awesome. And also how I got back my wallet which I lost for awhile on friday night. K last ballet lesson tmr, gonna take lotsa pics! Goonighty :)