Reflections

Too bad in Sg you can't just scream out in public without looking strange. And there's no high up all-naturale place you can hike to and scream your troubles out. I've always liked echo-ey places. It'll be like:"Hello. Coooool there's echo! ECHOOO.ECHOOO.EHHH.COOOO." haha nah i don't do that. April fools! Is. tomorrow. Then again wheeere can we hang up our troubles. And by troubles I mean like stuff you shouldn't be unhappy bout' but you are. That sentence sounds grammatically wrong.. ah heck. I know we should committ em to God but sometimes don't you feel like destroying things. Like buy a dartboard set thingy and stick your homework on it.

But no matter what we just gotta keep running. Just keep on swimmin' keep on swimmin' Hm I didn't do anything for Honey's birthday. Sigh, promise after Os I'll bring her to turf city to play with the other dogs and go swimmin' too! Sometimes I wish I were my own dog. Eat.sleep.defecate.pee.play.

So yeah.Be wise and let it be. Been asking many 'what ifs' lately and like Idk if we're gonna blablabla. Thing is we never know what would happen in the future. No one knew I was gonna be in swiss and meet awesome ppl 10 years ago. God did, but no one human did. So thinking bout what would happen next is prolly okay once in a while but when it gets too frequent its kinda a waste of time. Not as if the more you think and hope that Matthew Morrison would divorce and marry you he really would. Its often what you do now that determines what happens later so start doing and stop questioning melia :)

Yap. Pretty random I know. But its kinda true yeah? btw, thr's a tumblr page for rules of a gentlemen. Most are quite true. Its funny how some guys like to lead girls on (Or vice versa), like Boy A knows Girl A likes him but he doesn't like her. Still, he keeps her on a leash. A few harmless flirting right? So girl A keeps thinking boy A likelikes her back when actually he just wants to play her. Then when he gets bored of it and girl A finally confesses he'll reject her. And blame it on her saying he never once liked her and it was all her crazy ideas when he was dropping false hints everywhere. I hope people like these get a taste of their own medicine and die single. Or. meet someone who truly loves them and manages to change them. Cos that's what love is right? Making each other a better, happier person.

Emo much. But its kinda true we're all on rollercoasters now. Or better yet, bumper cars. Suddenly wanna play em haha. Anyhoo, If I could make improvements to this drawing I'll prolly add stars @ random areas in the mash up chunk of lines. Because there are things we have or are gonna go through in life. And even though many ppl go through the same thing, it isn't always really the same. Like falling in love, getting married, having your 1st child. Many people experience it and each experience is different. Like say when you fall in love just like everyone else does, be happy cos there's only that girl/boy in the whole world who loves you back.

Let's go find some asses to kick :p Maybe that's why most loud people succeed in life. Loud meaning um confident of themselves and daring to talk back to a superior when they know it isn't their fault. Hm, i guess we can't just take things in. We're pretty comfortable now in our homes, not having to worry bout letters with bills in em'. But 1 day we're gonna have to manage our own finances and stuff. If you do get married good for you, you got a partner to help you out and divide the workload. But some people just stay single, preference or circumstances alike they all got to do things themselves. And you only got yourself to rely on.

Late now, tgift yayness! These are times when I find purpose in blogging and get jittery gathering the photos for the post. Haha, here I go gonna press the 'publish post' button :)

Shoot Shag Marry

Imagine walking down a street and seeing ballerinas dressed in swan lake tutus crossing the road haha. That'll be so cool :) So yest was awesome, qianren made the whole class esp yj laugh like mad cows. Didn't know he could be so drama-mama. And after school we went to lot 1 to run some errands and had dinner. Hahaha laughed soo much when we were talking bout shoot shag and marry. It was really a Monyay for me teehee. Today.. was alright. 2.4 could have been better and Choir could have done much more. We were the last cca to dismiss lol, got chased out by mr liu. Prolly gonna have Morning practices everyday and thurs stay back as well. Choir girls! Come on just work your asses (or vocal chords o.o) out for another 2 weeks. So that even if we get a cop, we can still be proud and say we did our best :)

This dress is really naise :p And its blue. I like how its pretty decent in the front and back. No plunging necklines.

Not backless,see?

But a lil too long haha, anyhoo it looks gorgeous on Shuqi. Can't believe she started out her acting career in soft porn movies. Lucky Jackie Chan discovered her talent in 'real' acting.

I found this so funny hahaha. Still rmb when I was young we'll be like "Cheeeeeeeseeee!" ahhhh good times. Gg down to the playground to play catching and blind mice from 6-7 and coming home sweaty and with tons of 20/50 cent coins (Blue-blacks). During blind mice everyone will be like:"Cannot open eyes ah! Cannot cheat!" and I'll still skillfully open a lil haha. No one plays blindmice with eyes completely closed.. esp the catcher.

Wokay, still haven't bathed. Stinkyap!

Have a goooood evening everyone.

Osim.

I want more of such shoes :p I alr have 5 pairs now so sigh (After Os *Fingers crossed)

I bought another top today. I guess they're right.. everytime I go out to a place and patronise shops like f21,zara,espirit,cotton on or such, I always buy @ least 1 item. My buys aren't planned usually. I don't go "Hey shopping spree! Time to stock up my closet." It just happens when I see sth naise and on sale. Oh and someone give me hair like hers-pic above. Glad my hair grows fast tho :) Today was ballet-slack w friends-ballet. I think Alicia and I got killed by Sharyn dancing ddr. I sucked lol, I guess practise makes perfect. Saw a few swiss people thr, and ofc donated a small sum ._.

Hats hats hats galoreeeeee! I don't suit shades, fishball face here. But I really like hats :p Aft milo thriathlon the girls and I went to vivo and tried out hats @ random shops. I think I really suit em' hahaha (whoops, no blowing of trumpets here x.x) But seriously! Got a bad hairday? Hats to the rescue! The irony lol. Last time when I see ppl wearing hats on a cloudy day or indoors I'll be like:"Why is she wearing that indoors, it isn't even sunny.." Same goes for shades. I got 2 hats now, and I seldom wear em actually. Shall find more chances to wear em after Os.

These type is the one I got my eyes on. Sigh after Os I guess. Kk rushed post :( Sleeping wee bit early tdy so tmr imma not sleep in class. Wokiedokes, nights :D

Asian & lovin' it.

Yea my eyes are naturally this small. Can't help it that I was born this way -I'm on the right track, baby I was born this way. Plus, Imma asian. You know what that means right? -.-

This shows the most common searched topics. Slanted eyes? Smell? Slitty eyes? Flat faces?Definitely not all asians. Peace sign? Yeeea well.. maybe. LOOK THE SAME?! And I thought all caucasians look the same. Seriously, guys and women alike they mostly got the same features. Asians love white people ._. Okay maybe those Thai girls who hang out a lot with Caucasian tourist cos of the ka-ching. Go red when they drink, my dad does. But my dad ain't all the asian on the world. Small weiners.. Lol I'll never know. Why do Asians have black hair? Cos God knew we'd look ugly being blonde or redheads. Okay Xiaxue is an exception.

This is so LOL. I guess by asians they mean mainland chinese people. It's kinda insulting though, Caucasians aren't 'cooler' than us Asians just cos they speak with an accent. We got our own accent too! And honestly quite a few Asian actresses are more beautiful than Angmoh actresses. Hate it when this happens: "I'm from Singapore." "Oh which part of China is that?". Singapore doesn't even sound like a name for a province or city in China. Caucasians should stop looking down on Asians! Imma upload a screenshot I took of the most common google searches for "Why are caucasians ______" then laugh my head off hahahahahha.

Sigh k gotta wake up early tmr for choir, Shooooo early. Busybusybusy day tmr, wish me luck :)

Guuuuuudnight!

Hehehehe, I'll prolly never wear this out. For now. :p

Which seat do I take?

This week was prolly the most perfect week I had. Good things happen everyday, like that 1 thing that makes you forget how sucky the rest of the day was. Today I'm oveeer the moon cos got to catch up with acmq :) Had lunch then hwking with em in class till like 6:30. Pretty productive and full of gags hahaah. It feels good to be back, they were like "Eh you cut your hair? You renovated your room? Your pencil case change? You changed your shirt size?" Same reply: Lol very long alr. Same goes for me out to em', just realised how much we've missed out on one another. I know I don't really hang with simin as much in class cos of a few reasons.. kinda talked bout it today. But its aight, I hope every thursday would be acmq day! The thing is, I like knowing and meeting people but at the end of the day, there are always that small group of friends you turn to.

Its late but I feel good cos I finished all my overdued amath asses. Really, total pain in the ass. No more procrastination melia! Now imma left with Biology but a lil break with blogging here :p Tgif tmr and do i loooove fridays. Really looking forward to end of syf and free fridays. Now the 12:20 dismissal doesn't really mean much cos of cca. Don't get me wrong, I love choir and the pretty girls and carson o.o but I just wanna 100% studies. No more excuses/distractions. Rhia went with her buds for suckerpunch, gonna ask if its good. The girls look hot though, moooovie? Ehh, we'll see :)

Talkin bout movies, I haven't seen up. Slow much.

This is pweety hilarious. And unhealthy. At least now producers know where to look for the perfect boy if they were to make a similar film with real ppl lol, or he could just get quick $ by being the mascot. If only guys in my school looked cute and oversized in ug uniform. Joke hahaha. Off to work :(

Bye sweetcheeks.

Kingsley - Things I hate

I know its filled with a lot of vulgar but hey. It's actually really true hahaha. This kinda made my day considering how school was today -.-

Fool for you.

And I just kept sinking till I couldn't feel my limbs no more. My eyes burned as I opened them and saw how deep I truly was. Then I became crushed. No one was gonna save me be it now or the days before. Maybe they forgot a friend or maybe they didn't really care. God knows where I'm going, i just need to get away. The water entered my ears and all I heard was a ringing silence. And in that silence, I found peace. As the world slowly drifted away.

I'm glad to be home. Lynette and I finished the cl mock paper the earliest at 6, pretty happy bout that. I used to take hours to finish one up, this one was hard but I just kept gg. I finished it but whether or not it was good? Ah, what the heck. Alrighty, hope tmr would be good. Walked home alone tdy and I looked at the sky a lot. It was really blue and the clouds were fluffy. Wonder what's it like in heaven.. do we sleep on clouds?

Love

Foe.

Yap. I've hated people before. Reallyreally badly. But eh don't worry I'm not gonna blog bout how angry I am or was o.o More on how I decided to just let go, okay I'm not like a hundred percent over it. Just I learn to not mind it anymore. And note that I didn't forget (Impossible to) and I didn't forgive. Because forgiving someone's both ways, how can you forgive someone if that person doesn't want it or seek for it? Anyhoo, came across a quote which was sth like this: Hatred is like holding a piece of hot coal in your hands and wanting to throw it at a certain someone; you get burned instead. I found this very true. The hours I'd spend thinking and thinking. or crying and what do I get from that, uh. Nothing. Except really bad days and low self esteems.

So yeah. There are things we can or should avoid no matter how much you want to settle it. People all have flaws I guess, mine's being selfish. Just frustrating when you see your friends marvelling @ how good or caring that Tom/Dick/Harry is when he's just a piece of shhii-. Sigh. Y'know what? Every sinner has a future the same way every saint had a past. I'm looking forward to the day he changes. Either that or the day I know I wouldn't have to see him agn.

Love your enemies melia, they HATE it.

Flutter.

If I lived in a beach house, near to a genuine beach with soft sand and clear waters. I'll go there, shout out my frustration; get wet and make pebbles skid across the waters. Every.single.day.
I've been pretty light hearted this week. Love it when I don't need to worry much bout other non academic stuff. Its pweety late now, 12:40am. Goodmornin' folks :) Anyway school tdy was alright, laughed a lot. I'm sooo happy my sbj improved from a 150 (weak, i know.) to a 170 plus. Yes, some other girls can jump even further but @ least I've improved. Hope I'll be able to sustain though. I'm supposed to blog bout sth else tdy, sth deeeep. But It's friggin late and I'm drained. Reeeally pray that I'll be happy everyday like tdy and yest. Though my life ain't perfect. Came across this quote: Happy people don't have perfect lives, its just that they've decided to look beyond those imperfections. And guess what? It feels great :)

Sometimes you don't realise it but how you think of me makes me feel lousy; at times. & disappointed @ myself.

Monyay.

Hey short one- still gotta do chem and el :l

Today was pweety good, I felt so serene in some sense. Plus Inch Chua came to Swiss to perform! She sings really well with the guitar and everything, sg's own taylor swift :) Am I right, or am I right? The rock band was uh.. not as good but my friends and I still made it fun anyway hahaha. Headbangin huh? I'm more towards soft rock, Bon Jovi stuff. Music like Led Zeppelin (?), I can't appreciate that much. Oh and mdm chok told us all to seat down when we were all alr standing.. spoil sport :p Anyhoo, we were attempting the accent hahaha. I like how Inch Chua talks. It's like a cross bwt Sg and America accents. "Oh my gosh, your hair is like so cool." try saying that in valley accent o.o

Hoping tmr would be even better, hope I can wake up uuuuurlee in the morn to bathe. Oh and I wonder why God created Insects or ants. ANTS. Ugh they kept coming over and I think I killed families in class.

Wokiedokes,

imma get down to work.

I see a near revival, stirring as we pray and seek; we're on our knees.

Khaki and Brown.

Thanks to Val, I'm kinda in love with the boho look teeheee. It can be casual or extreme really. The right type of blouse matched up with jeans is kinda like relaxed boho look. If you're dressing up for town you can wear a maxi bohemian dress with leather flats and top it off with bangles. Looked through my closet just now and realised some of my reaaaally old ( like when I was 8) clothes are pretty bohemian. Like this skirt I had (From Zarakids. lol much I've worn zara since I was waaaay young), it used to reach the floor when I was young. Now I can still wear it cos the waistband is stretchable ( And I didn't grow sideways much hehe.) But its to the knee. Anyhoo, it still looks good so I tried it on with a yellow speg. Awesome much. Though a lil exposing so I got a cardi to go with it. Short cardis are better cos long ones add too much layer when you're alr wearing a skirt.

And not forgetting the accessories and all too famous headband. I'm def not the accessories type of person, too troublesome. But again, if there's ever a time I'll have to go out with my friends and dress up more (Sounds like after Os.) The accessories would really go with what you're wearin :) Ofc don't weigh yourself down with tonsof necklaces/bangles/rings/anklets. Sometimes, simple's naise too.

So yeah. Boho's pretty good for our type of weather anyway :) Can't believe I used to think my timbaland shoes were ugly. Gypsy and vintage ftw! Hmm, funny how I have tons of nice clothes but I mostly go out with jeans + shirts. Hahaha, yest when I was topping up my ezlink when cyn alr pass the 'gates', I turned ard and she was laughing @ me. Sth like "You're such a unique dresser. How many girls our age carry a bag with the black glittery stuff like yours, wear a shirt like yours and denim 3/4s + a headband." I'm sure she's just happy she's got such a unique friend heh.

Still, the best type of clothes are Peeeejays. Lovin' what im wearin' haha. I think its good to know how to dress up, but pretty weird if girls over do it. For now, imma stick to my denim babies-jeans and 3/4s and my favourite hardrock cafe shirt :)

Bye sweetcheeks.

Hosanna

Break my heart for what breaks yours. Everything I have for your kingdom's cause. As I walk from Earth into eternity.

Went to net rally yesterday with cyn. Pastor Rich Witzmer's pretty good, talked bout us being revolutionaries for God. It kinda hit the nail cos lately I've been worrying a lot bout how my friends would think of me if I were to advise them not to do this and that. And most of the time I bring in the Christian perspective when they aren't christians in the first place. They tend to think I'm 'acting holy.' Then I'll just shut up. But yesterday was awesome, Jesus was hated and killed because he cared. & he didn't die so we can all just sit back and enjoy life. We're fishers of men. So I kinda liked yesterday :) Hahaha, imma start bringing people to church and getting them saved. Then the devil would know my name and go:"Hey reinhard? Hold on a sec, some youngsters in sg are getting people saved." Bring it on, Satan. Cos I got a God who loves me, died for me and got my back.

Braids

I am so gonna try this once my hair grows longer. The waterfall braid too :) Miss long hair, I can play ard with it more.

Hehehehe, kk bye!

Rojak Post.

ChanMeifei why're you so flexible. I still rmb before she went to Sota I was muuuuch more flexible than her. Now it's the other way ard :p Its aight, you'll serve as a motivation for me to train even more @ home despite the Os. And I'll come back to ballet with a perfect center split :)

A few of my friends has been feeling rather down lately. So Cheer up guys! Life has more in store for you and time doesn't wait. We're only 16, it isn't the end of the world. (Or is it? o.o) Revelations, the apocalypse stuff aside, we donymany years to go. Unless you die young.. If I die young, bury me in satin. Lay me down on a bed of roses, sink me in the riv- So rmb to always look right and left and right agn b4 crossing the road okay? :) Haha the pt is we shouldn't dwell on things which aren't gonna stick with us for the rest of our lives. Friends come and go, enemies too. But our O level cert sticks with us till the day we die. Its funny how we know the right thing to do yet we don't do it.

Start doing the right thing, melia!

So yea.. just be happy okay? Sometimes whn things are really gg bad like you became pregnant or whtever just be happy you're alive. That way your glass is always half full.

Or better yet. Full to the brim :D Okay so my amath assigns are like ugh crap im still @ differentiation. On the bright side, I'm concerned and im trying to finish em off now. See? Ofc you can't always say its ok cos I finished trigo alr lol that'll be you deceiving yourself. :O

K imma pig :p Supposed to take an hr nap the same time as Dom. Ended up sleeping till almost 7. Lol-ed when I looked at the time and the msg "Wake up Amelia... you sleep like a pig." Thaz iz why I staz up till naoz. I was doing amath just now. 1995 piglets ftw! Next time I shall receive wake-up calls haha.

Wow. This is such a rojak post. Ballet>Cheerup friends>Positive talk>Sleeping. 4 in 1 (y) K so imma end here.

I am so getting rojak w/o beansprout and w/ extra youtiao tmr before choir wakakaka. :p

"No one learns from your mistakes, we let our prophets go to waste."-Advertising Space @ Robbie Williams.

Check this song out, its an oldie. But really naise, the lyrics are so literature study worthy :)

Bohemian Rhapsody

Went to je library to do hwk by myself then met cyn at jp for lunch :) Got some unexpected buys hehe. Like the pencil box above! I really like it, the dogs look so much like honey haha. Okay the bb's just for show. Like, put a bb on a pile of shit and it makes the shit look so attractive. And the blouse too, i know that I promised a few friends not to buy anymore clothes but sighhhh okayokay I promise no more!

This blouse too. And whyyy the crazy "YEAH MAN." expression? Cos I finished my language hwk and I feel so good not wasting my morning sleeping in. Thanks to Dom's "Wake-up msgs". & I feel so bohemian tdy. The floral blouse, vintage shoes. Hahaha, and i bought famous amos cookies! Things to do before I die: Get secret recipe for fa cookies and make'em for my hubby. Teehee, kidding. I really wanna create a blogshop to sell those clothes I don't wear. Hm maybe aft Os.

I've learnt the ninja glare people heh, coolio ttm. Nigahiga's naise but Natalie Trans still better, pov. Oh I collected my high cut blue shoes from Rachel's sister yest. She works @ leftfoot Cine, her name's Renee and she sounds exactly like Rachel. Colette says she even smells like her. & she's really pretty ;) Looking forward to the 1st wear.

Peace!

Uh oh I want somemore, uh oh what're you waiting forrr.

Lies and sleepless nights.

Told Dom was gonna sleep alr but steeeeel up :l And I got earlybird plans tmr morn.

Ugh, Why.Can't.I.Sleep

ACMQ

I missssssss you all dearly. Dk if i should be :) or :( that I can't even find a photo with all of us in it. We rarely take photos when we're out, even when we went swimming @ min's place. Still rmb the really hilarious vd we took of us singing the songs we had to for the sec2 music project thingy. Hahaha, Cat was so funny in the background and qing kept laughing. & that day I made simin cry cos I was too harsh on her bout the singing. I miss the walks home and when qing and min will keep bickering and we'll have to reason it out for em'. I miss Cat helping me to fix my tie whenever I ask her too. And when she pokes me while doing so heheh. No matter how I piss you girls off you never ditch me. You just say it in my face whtever you don't like bout me and i like the frankness. Like I'll ask:"Am I unpleasant in any way?" and you all will prolly say:"You're fine melia just sometimes you can be a lil selfish."

I miss the t-shirt design for acmq which didn't happen. I miss COMING UP WITH ACMQ. I liked how being with you girls were so flexible, you wouldn't diss me if I couldn't hang out with you all or whtever. Hate that we all kinda split up. Hope we can walk home tgt again soon. Love'yall even if you girls don't really 'know' me right now.

Thank God for good friends.

Hello goodbye.

Hey! School today was *cough short *coughcough.

Sports day soon and imma leave home for lot 1 alr :) Meeting rhia and sh for lunch. Hope its gonna be fun. And i hope i ain't afraid of the loud gunshots before each race lol.

Did you know ive been pronouncing lol as 'low' whnevr i say it? Like hahaha, so noob. and cyn thought its just sth i do when i laugh. K so 'lawwl. lawwl."

This is pweety random wakakaka, :) Bye.

Saminamina eheh, wakawaka eheh.

Kaya Scodelario

She's so beautiful, and a great actress :)

I like her smile, like even though it isn't the jessica alba kinda perfect line of teeth. Its often the imperfections that make it so attractive teehehe.

And (Y), she's buds with emma watson! I'm starting to think british actresses are better cos even at a young age they don't have to go through disney. They just start acting serious roles, kaya's role as effy was pretty intense. And she banged it.

She also had a lil role in clash of the titans. Hope to see her in more movies! GO KAYA :D

and peanut butter. Heh, crippled prawn :p

Yea, imma sexist.

I know this is all based on personal likes/dislikes but I really wished I'd went into a girls' school. Be it a Chij convent or St margarets or whatever. All my friends from Girls' schools look so happy and Colette told me that in girls schools, very few or almost no one says vulgarities in dialects or chinese. They are pretty 'english-y" and can't stand singlish. Know its stupid complaining cos I'm left with just 7 months in swiss (:D) Hope Jc/poly would be better. Dk why thr's this stereotype thinking: Students from poly are mostly from a chinese speaking family and are ahlians/ahbengs while students from jc are mostly from english speaking families and the bad ppl are mostly bitches/bastards. Hope it isn't true, kinda keen on poly too but hey! Study first. Less talk more work- Alicia

Hahaha, stupid girl.

So yea, Val and Rennice are from crescent. Taupok ftw!

Meifei's from SOTA, though its mixed but its pretty cool having artsy guys in your class. And you can wear tights to assembly! their timetable is like say if you're in the faculty of dance: Study,dance, study, break, study, dance. Kinda like a stress reliever eh?

Colette's from Chij Tanjong Katong. Field trips with girls and piggy backs without guys shouting :" eeeee. eh eh zaogeng la." Snickers*

And Alicia's from St Margarets. They pass pads ard by throwing across the class. Though I wouldnt like it if I get smacked on the boob all day .____.

Sigh. Sometimes I think I'll die single. But nah, its not bout the guys. Yes, maybe less distractions :p but its still the kinda girls you see in a neighbourhood mixed school. "Those type" how Rhiannon and I put it. 7 months quick swoop by, just fast forward already.

Speaking of fast forward, have you ever watched Click? Its the movie Adam Sandler's is in, pretty cool. And old haha just came to my mind. - A lot of things has been bombarding my mind.

I think what cyn said is true. When you start to dislike someone, like in Mean Girls, Cadey disliked Regina. So word vomit happens. You just can't stop saying bad things bout that person and you see the worse in him/her. But anyway, Simin:" There's no use holding grudges.". I shall get myself a stress ball and squeeze it whenever im troubled so I wouldn't feel this tension anymore. I hope it works o.o

Goodbye Sweetcheeks :)